Monday, December 21, 2009

Hi. I am a first time BJPer, but not new to beading. My passion is crazy quilting. I am also a beadaholic, I have more than I will ever know what to do with. But then is it really possible to have TOO many beads?
For the last couple of years my husband Tommy and I have been following the BPJs. He is my number one supporter, my rock, my creative muse, and my souldmate all rolled into one. He encouraged me to do this year's project. He was even planning on designing some of the blocks for me to bead. He passed away very unexpectedly on October 29th. I am not sure I will ever recover from that. I am going to use the BPJ to work through my grief (or try to). My project is going to highlight our lives together and our love.
I look forward to following everyone's progress and watching as your creativity takes wing.

Mary L.


a2susan said...

Dear Mary, I am so sorry to learn of your husband's unexpected death. Your idea of using the bjp to work through your grief sounds like a very healing way to help you and record your love for him. You will find lots of support here in your journey.


Lisa Criswell / Indigo's Beads said...

mary, i am very sorry to hear of the sudden loss of your husband. i would like to wish you peace and happiness in the upcoming year and i look forward to seeing your work.

Whytefeather said...

Mary, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine the hurt you are feeling. I wish you peace in the new year as you work through your grief and express your love for him in your beading.

Brenda said...

Hi Mary

Beadwork is the perfect medium to work through your grief and get to the other side. Tommy sounds like a wonderful man. He'll be watching your progress from the other side, I am sure of it.
Welcome to the Bead Journal Project!

freebird said...

So sorry to hear your sad news. Since he knew of this group and followed it with you, it will give you a way to grow into your new life but keep him with you as you do. Welcome to the group.

Dees said...

Dear Mary, you must hurt a lot. I sincerely hope that beading will give you a sense of belonging, not only to us other beaders, but to you beloved husband too. He will be with you and still inspire your blocks, even from beyond. You are very courageous to still want to participate and share. I hope we will be worth your trust.

The Beaded Life said...

My heart goes out to you Mary. Welcome. You are courageous and I welcome your trust with open arms. And look at all the open arms here! We all know art is healing. I am so glad you have decided to still participate. I am honored to be a part of your journey.

Robin said...

I too am honored to be part of your grief journey. To highlight your life with Tommy and your love for each other in each month's piece will be one way to remain connected with him and to feel his presence in your life. I agree with Brenda... that somehow his love will surround you with each bead you stitch and yours will be with him wherever he is. Thank you so much for posting and for sharing.

Robin A.

Mary said...

I want to thank each of you for your kind words. Ya'll are so very right about feeling him with me as I work on these pieces. I find myself lost in happy memories and actually catch myself smiling occassionally. While I am doing this for myself, I hope that everyone is able to see the love and happy memories each piece is filled with.